Surgery and my time in hospital!

On Fri 7th July I arrived, bright and early at the hospital, at 7.15am. Ready for an hour and a half of questioning about my health, some explanation of what was going to happen in the next few hours and some last minute tests (swabs & urine tests), before getting some numbing cream put on the backs of my hands (as I requested) and changing into my oh-so-flattering hospital gown.

I went into theatre at about 9am, where a few of my questions were checked over again before the anaesthetist got ready to put me under general anaesthetic - I think I got sedated first, as I was a little bit nervous about them putting it in the back of my hand. (I don't know what it is, just needles in the backs of my hands freak me out a bit - hence the numbing!) All I recall from before going under was babbling to the doctor who was sticking ECG recorders on me... Something along the lines of "I bet you get people saying some funny things to you when they're on this..." Then I proceeded to tell her about a video I'd seen on Facebook of people who were coming off anaesthetic... But I don't recall the whole thing, so I was no doubt one of those people... My bad!

My view when I woke up

I then woke up in the recovery room, which I don't remember much about, except for someone giving me tea through a straw, then my oxygen mask, then the tea again - oxygen mask - tea... You get the gist, he was just making sure my heart rate was good, and I just wanted tea... My priorities were in the right place! Then I got wheeled up to my ward (it was about 1.30pm?) where I sort of phased in and out of sleep for a couple hours, until I finally came around enough to ask where my bag of stuff was, so I could call Simon and let him know he could come back to the hospital to see me. I woke up with my foot already casted up, it was in a backslab that was just bandaged to me, so there was support where it was needed. I had a pump on my right leg, to help prevent blood clotting, and obviously a cannula in my hand.

Asides from that, Friday was a bit of a blur, I know that Simon visited, left and then came back later with his Mum and brother, and that I'd also spoke on the phone to my Mum and sister... I know I got given food and drinks, but I didn't eat very much as I felt really sick, and was sick a total of 4 times that day. So that meant I had the joy of being given everything through my drip, which was fine at first, but then for some reason I just couldn't keep my wrist in the right position for the drip to keep dripping, and my hand swelled a bit which was a bit uncomfortable. I was obviously also in quite a bit of pain, but not unbearably as they were keeping me thoroughly drugged up (thankfully!) I then also had to deal with using the toilet... We attempted a bed pan twice, which just wasn't happening, and then I got to try the commode, which thankfully was fine, as I was starting to worry. But then my body decided, "hey, you know it's really awkward for you to wee?? Ha! Well now I want to wee on an hourly basis throughout the night"... So my poor ward staff had to deal with me buzzing every hour for the next, like, 4 hours throughout the night so that I could use the commode/the bedpan (which I finally used and HATED - kind of feels like you're weeing yourself and I'm not down with that!)

And that was my first day/night in hospital, thrilling stuff, huh? Apologies that it's taken me nearly 2 months to write about it, I'm just pretty terrible at motivating myself, but I will be sure to continue telling you about my adventures since surgery!

Until then,
TTFN, ta ta for now!
 

Reading Back...

So, I decided to re-read my whole blog - everything I've ever written, from April 2014 to now... Wow, I never realised how much I'd actually wrote, and some of the things I've said. It took me over an hour, but it was a nice reminder of how things have been and how much has happened.

I realised I'm pretty good at saying things and contradicting myself a little bit, so I decided I'd do a little update on things I've said and things as they are now.

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Firstly, 'Forever' - the business venture I took on for a whole 5 minutes. Haha! I said I would Blog about it at some point, and I never did, because I gave it up pretty fast... Turns out I'm not very good at motivating myself to do something I'm not really invested in. Which is a shame, but it was a lesson learnt. I am however attempting a new business venture (no promises yet though!) of being a crafter and selling the things I make - a much more doable business venture as it's actually something I enjoy!

Secondly, my sudden switch between "I'm going to do this all naturally from now on!"  to "GIVE ME ALL THE NHS PRESCRIPTIONS NOWWWWW!" - a few months ago I was preaching about how amazing it is to do everything naturally and using no nasty chemicals... Well, that was another lesson learnt, I went back to using medication because I realised that my Arthritis is never going to be cured naturally. It's about discovering the balance - yes nature can help, eating healthily and excersising is obviously very much suggested, but if diseases could be cured naturally, we'd all be walking around fit as fiddles. Don't get me wrong - if Aloe Vera and other natural things are what do it for you, then good for you - you do you! But the whole 'nature' thing didn't really do it for me, and it's probably a good thing I didn't stick to it seeing as I have an ankle which is fused in the wrong position - which would only have got far worse without medical intervention. So, big up the NHS! I'm sorry for briefly not loving you. (Although I still don't like medication and dream of not having to have it!)

Lastly, (I'm not sure if I forgot any, but I'm sure I'll blog about it if I did! - or you can just comment it mentioning it if I did miss anything that I've never cleared up!) I'm going to try and go back to my original state of blogging, where I wrote shorter blogs, more often. As I realised that my more recent posts are SOOO LONG, and I applaud you for bothering to read them fully (if you did!) But I personally found it more enjoyable reading my short, regular blogs than my essay long blogs... So look out for them! 

By the way, if you do regularly read these, or just fancy keeping in the know, you can actually subscribe to the blog, somewhere at the bottom of this page, I think.... Or you can follow by e-mail by putting your e-mail in at the side >>>>>>>
I don't know, I've been doing this for nearly 3 years now and I still have no idea what's going on with all this stuff at the side of the page, I'll have to have a gander!

Cheers for reading,
TTFN, ta ta for now! :)

I Didn't Choose The Spoon Life. The Spoon Life Chose Me.

A very belated Happy New Year to you all from a newly turned 22 year old me! (It was my birthday on Tuesday!)

And, once again, it's all been happening for me recently! Firstly, I moved into a house with Simon (the boyfriend, in case you didn't know) just before New Year, I finally had an appointment with an Occupational Therapist, I'm booked in to see an Orthapedic and I finally started my Humira injections on Monday!!

So, I'll take it bit by bit. First, HOUSE! It's great to have a house at last which I can call my own and to be able to share it with Simon - who, I am incredibly lucky to have, as he has been looking after me so much lately. I've been job searching lately, so I can have something to do and help pay bills etc. and so far it's been.... Dissapointing. It's so hard to look for jobs knowing you're limited physically. If only job descriptions could include "yes, you can sit for a whole shift", it would make life easier! But I have been applying for anything which I think would be suitable, like reception jobs etc. I just haven't got any where yet, it's pretty disheartening, but I'll keep trying!

My little perching stool!

Next, OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY! - I finally had an Occupational Therapy appointment last week and it was great! I honestly don't understand why it's taken 8 years to see one, because I could really have done with it a very long time ago! She was super helpful and ordered me a perching stool for my kitchen so I can sit and do the washing up/ cooking/ waiting for the kettle to boil etc. and I received it the other day (pictured to the right) and it's not the most attractive looking of stools, but it does the job! It felt pretty awesome to be able to sit and do the pots (as sad as that sounds) but normally it kills my legs, which ain't great. She also ordered me my own wheelchair because I've been borrowing one from a church where I no longer live, so it'd be good to give it back... And she also told me about Smart Crutches - which are like fancy Gutter Crutches because she thinks they'd help me as my elbows are also bad, so normal crutches don't help... I'm going to give Gutter Crutches a go first when I go to physio, and if they're not great I'll consider buying myself some Smart Crutches, because they're £85!!!! And that's not money I have to throw around right now. And, basically I'm back to see her again next month so she can see how I'm doing and suggest some other things to help me get on with life :)

Humira injection!

And finally, HUMIRA! (Or Adalimumab!) I finally had my first dose of it on Monday! I say finally because when I was 16 my doctor at the time tried to apply for funding for me to have this medication and got declined at least 3 times because simply having one severely bad ankle was not enough for them to give me it (PFFT!) Which was pretty annoying. But hey ho! I have it now, and that's what matters. So, after having Methotrexate injections, I was pretty scared that these were going to be awful too, BUT it wasn't!! The needle is so much finer, I barely felt it! And you don't have to press it ridiculously hard into your leg to try and get a safety barrier up properly, so it's fantastic! I felt well afterwards, and the next day I was okay too, except for a really itchy nose/feeling like I needed to sneeze.... But, from Wednesday onwards that turned into a lovely cold, so now I'm snuffling away, surrounded by hankies and cups of tea, wishing it would hurry up and pass. But I can't complain, I'd much rather get a cold than feel sick... Fingers crossed my body will get a little more used to it and react a little better in future. But I have until the 6th Feb to recover because the injection is bi-weekly, which is also great, the only downfall is you have to be in very good health to do it because if you do it while ill, you can get really quite ill, and we don't want that!

Things are finally beginning to happen, and I love it - it gives me hope that I will overcome this and be walking about and doing things normally in time or at least finding better ways to adapt to the life I've been handed - hope which I've really lacked over the last few years and it's nice to have it back again. I'm set to start physio again soon, and see a Orthapedic about whether anything can be done for my ankle/elbow, and I'm starting back on Methotrexate again soon too - so I'll be sure to update again soon!

So, from this girl who ain't giving in....
TTFN, Ta ta for now! :)  

The Rollercoaster Known As 'Life'

Hello! I'm back again! I hope you're all doing well :)

So, it's all been happening in the past month! I've just got back from having a lovely bloodtest (2 forms instead of 1!) and a chest x-ray, just to doubly make sure I've never had tuberculosis or hepatitis. Which, as far as I know - I never have, so that should be fine, but I had to have them so that the hospital can be all fine and happy to prescribe me... Drum roll please.... ADALIMUMAB! (try pronouncing that when you're drunk) Otherwise known as Humira. This is another injection, but it's every 2 weeks as opposed to weekly (phew! I suppose) I've literally been waiting to have this medication for years! When I was about 16 (so 5 years ago) my doctor tried applying for the funding to get me it a few times but was declined every time, but it turns out Lincoln are lucky enough to be able to just give it out when they want to. So I've just got to wait for my results and then get on that, I'm sort of excited, but sort of nervous at the same time.

The downside to Adalimumab (asides from it being an injection) is that it's also recommended that I get back on Methotrexate again (boooooooooo!!!) I'm obviously quite reluctant, but I've said I'll give it a go! 

Day before hospital appointment and 2 weeks after

 

I've also been taking Prednisolone (steroids) tablets for the past month, and as you can see from my picture of my bad ankle, my swelling has gone down so much it's crazy! Like, my foot on the right side of the picture nearly looks like a normal human foot! This doesn't mean my ankle's better though, it still swells up occasionally, and I can't really move it at all. And due to losing the swelling it's a lot more vulnerable and gets cold really easy now which hurts a great deal, but it's a step in the right direction! :)

Asides from all this hospital-y stuff, I've been trying to keep myself busy with not working and all. I've been working towards walking again and I've managed to get myself down to one crutch most of the time, two crutches when I'm in a great deal of pain, and wheelchair when we go shopping or something. Hopefully in time I'll build up my strength again to be able to just use a walking stick, and then work my way up to walking longer distances, as I use the chair at the minute as I'm just exhausted after quite short amounts of walking. I have hope! :)

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I recently auditioned and got the job with the Lincolnshire Road Safety Partnership, performing in their corporate tour which we will start rehearsing for in the New Year, which I'm excited for, and it's adding motivation to get me better and walking again! And I've been doing some crafting! I've been making Christmas presents for all my family, but I hope in time to be making some stuff to sell, so I set up a Facebook page for it (feel free to give it a like!) It's been nice to do something which is rewarding but not physically demanding, it feels so good when you finish something and it looks fabulous! 

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 And last but not of course not least, I've recently started co-hosting and co-producing a little radio show with Simon called Take the Stage, which we do every Sunday 2-3pm (feel free to tune in!) It's good fun, we play lots of great show and film music and generally have a chatter about local theatre and films on at the minute.

So, as you can see I've been trying uber hard to keep busy haha! But hopefully Simon and I will shortly be moving out together and hopefully I can get back into work again, so overall, feeling pretty optimistic at the minute! Woohoo!

Anyway, thanks for reading, well done if you made it this far - I realised I've babbled on quite a bit! Next update will be soon I'm sure!

TTFN, Ta ta for now!!
 :)

The Downfall

Hi guys,

This post is a little bit of a downer compared to my last one a few months ago, as I had just started my new job then, and now I'm set to be leaving it in just over a week. 

I've had a little bit of a roller-coaster ride since starting here, with struggling when I initially started, but then having a hospital appointment not long after my last blog post (when I decided enough was enough and I needed help from a doctor again) where I received a steroid injection and discussed the potential of starting a new weekly/biweekly injection or monthly infusion - this will be decided upon on my next appointment. Anyway, I returned to work again after the appointment, and found myself coping much better, and managing shifts with a lot less pain (although I was still in pain, just less) thanks to the steroid injection I had. But... Unfortunately that wore off after 6 weeks (when I was due to go back for another appointment, but had to rearrange, little did I know it'd be a whole month later!) So, at the moment I'm back to square one, suffering so badly I've had to leave my job (well, in a week)...

It's a real downer really, as I was enjoying the job, I love hosting and my fellow team members are great. But I'm often finding myself unable to finish my shift, and having to leave early, and then arriving home unable to walk any more. Genuinely, there have been nights where I've got home from work, crying from the pain and the misery it causes me and I've not eaten anything because I can't deal with the pain of standing up & walking... And the pain has made me lose sleep often, and I know it's not a healthy way to live at all, in fact it has made me feel quite poorly on a regular basis.

I find the whole thing incredibly degrading, I've honestly never felt so worthless. The fact that I can't even look after myself in a tiny accommodation which has no stairs, and everything is only a few steps away at the age of 21 kills me a little bit. It's just totally ruined me basically, we all know I hate giving up on things, and I often like to define myself as a "trooper" for all the stuff I've managed to do by not giving up. 

But unfortunately this time I have to give up, and I'll be moving in with Simon and his family, and see where I can go from there... Fingers crossed I'll be up and running again shortly, I'll be sure to blog about it when I am, but in the meantime, it'll be time to rest and prepare myself for my next hospital appointment - which will probably include being prescribed a new injection :(

TTFN,
Ta ta for now.